Poverty Is Not an Accident

Poverty Is Not an Accident
Nelson Mandela

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

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Somebody on facebook whines "being disabled" is like: I want chocolate milk, but my knee hurts but I want chocolate milk.....

I replied:

 no. What having disabilities is like: Fresh milk no longer fits in my $3/day food stamps budget. Neither does fresh produce, most other dairy, and almost all animal protein. 

Besides, living in a travel trailer in a parking lot, in a rural desert that's scalding in the summer and below freezing this year, day and night, for over a month, with a microscopic refrigerator that can't store much fresh stuff, anyway, with the nearest grocery $20 gasoline away, so I can only make one trip/month, means if it's not in a can, box or bag, I probably can't get it, or it'll rot or freeze solid before I can finish eating it. 

It also means I think very carefully about what I'll prepare to eat, because, in these below-freezing temps, my 55 gallon barrel of washing water is frozen solid, so it takes about two days to chip enough ice to melt to bathe or do dishes, so I end up too discouraged to prepare meals, anyway. 

Because I live without running water, since this old trailer wasn't well cared for by the previous, deceased owner's daughter, so the sewage and plumbing pipes in the kitchen and shower burst from freezing and I can't repair them myself nor can I afford to hire anybody to do it for me. 

And the slumlord gets half my $700/mo Social Security Disability income, anyway. 

And when it rains or snow melts on the roof, the cowl of my air conditioner is deteriorated from the harsh sun, so it leaks onto my bed and I have to sleep with an emergency, Mylar blanket over me to stay dry. 

And nobody gives a damn, so I'm totally isolated, ostracized and hated by these small town rednecks. 

So I'm stranded here and will probably die here. And the slum lord and his "friend," my next door neighbor who beats his dogs till they scream (but I dare not call the authorities, lest I get evicted), who threatens to kill me, who vandalizes my property & steals my dogs, these two men won't know I'm dead for a long time, until my rent is due. And they'll pick through every aspect of my life. And what they don't want, a life time of writing and personal effects, will go into the dumpster I have to look at every day.

Thursday, November 22, 2012

stop demoralizing!

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 I had to answer some condescending crap that just appeared in my feed. I go through this shit, every damn YEAR! SHUT UP! quote: "Some of us have problems during the holidays and sometimes are overcome with great sadness when we remember the loved ones who are not with us and many people have no one to spend these times with and are besieged by loneliness. We all need caring thoughts and loving prayers right now. If I don't see your name, I'll understand. May I ask my friends wherever you might be to kindly copy, paste, and share this status for one hour to give a moment of support to all those who have family problems, health struggles, job issues, worries of any kind. and just need to know that someone cares. Do it for all of us, for nobody is immune. I hope to see this on the walls of all my friends just for moral support. I know some will!! I did it for a friend and you can too!"

My reply: I JUST posted an announcement re: what people can do that would help. And I read this: "besieged by loneliness. " A total demoralization. I'm alone. I'm isolated. It's not a war; it's social injustice. I don't want pity. I want real support and respect. I'm not a charity case; I'm a wonderful human being who has been ostracized from society b/c of disabilities, sexual orientation and gender identity I can't help. I don't want prayers and happy thoughts; I want justice. And I don't want to be used as some "boogie man," so people will feel they at least escaped my circumstances. I'm not a poster child. Nothing in that status says anything about changing anything to make things better for those of us who've fallen through the cracks & been rejected by our culture. It just says, "be glad you're not them." Here's the status I just wrote: ATTENTION All non-MuriKKKans and unaMuriKKKans, I'm alone. It's cold. People r posting pics of families & friends & foods I can't afford. I didn't get much sleep b/c neighbor is in loud, manic phase. I don't want to get demoralized today, so please, send me really cool stuffs, so I don't feel so isolated. And I CERTAINLY don't want to feel deprived! Thanks!

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Angelou Wept

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 Are you weeping over the "kill" list? The drones over Pakistan & over US air space? Do you weep that a Monsanto CEO heads the FDA? Or that Wall Street controls every cabinet post, while our citizens are attacked by paramilitary forces for e
xercising their right to free speech? Do you weep that global warming wasn't mentioned in the Presidential debates? Do you weep that the only female candidate for President was arrested for attempting to participate in the debates? How moved are you by Guantanimo? Planning to write a Hallmark card about perpetual war, Lockheed Martin? General Electric? Halliburton? What happened to you, Angelou? Was being a real revolutionary too hard? Or is all that fat money just too soft. When did you turn into a lap dog? And why?


I was grateful to see President Obama’s victory speech. I was over the moon to see the audience. There were about 60 percent white voters the other 40 percent were African Americans, Asian, Spanish speaking etc. I wept at that spectacle, it told me that the pundits that continue in our country to try to polarize us, to keep us apart, are not succeeding. Americans are waking up not only to the truth, but the truth in each other. Hallelujah!