Poverty Is Not an Accident

Poverty Is Not an Accident
Nelson Mandela

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Posers

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Lazy, stupid people in would be bored out of their minds here. See, they're not resourceful enough to discover how beautiful life is and they're certainly not going to invest the energy in finding out. They don't know how to think, read, write, question, investigate, heal or grow anything. They think that's the way life is. It's not. But they're stupid and lazy, so what can you expect? POSERS!

What they do instead is masturbate: self stimulate in the most infantile, embarrassing and usually disgusting ways they can think of. And, however over stimulated they are, because they're empty and needy, they always demand more. They masturbate with porn, with BDSM, with body "modifications (aka: self mutilation)," with drugs, with bible thumping, with guns, with buying genuine plastic garbage at Wal*Mart, with tv/ipod/cell phone/bad movies, with cheap and sickening foods, with violence, with cruelty. POSERS!
They just beat off, because they're too stupid and lazy to find out what love really is, what relationship means, how intimacy works. They only breed because they're too stupid and lazy to buy rubbers, and they sure don't have the integrity to keep it in their pants or keep their knees together. They dry hump, furiously, like toy poodles, against any warm object: self-stimulating, never relating, miserable, frustrated, craving, craving, craving and never satisfied. POSERS!




They think cruelty is a sport. They think bullying others proves they're smarter than their victims. How can betraying someone's trust "prove" how smart you are? You're not smart; you're a cheater, a coward, spineless, a parasite. It takes courage to have ethics, to protect the weak, to speak the truth, to not act out on every single impulse, fart and feeling in a moment. They're SO stupid, SO lazy, they actually believe Jesus didn't symbolize exactly the opposite of how they behave, yet damn near every one of them out here has a cross, a fish, a bumper sticker, a saint . . . POSERS! 

So, I'm in the land of the undead: zombies, not alive, slow, dessicated, repulsive, useless, ugly, mutilated, filthy, cold and only really dangerous if you can't think or move fast enough. They're easy to outrun, out think, out last. The only difference between the posers and zombies is posers breed, damn it. And their spawn are even stupider and lazier than the previous generation. POSERS!



And they follow me around town, around the internet. Their little, narrow lives are so small, they've never seen a human being who can play the flute, raise goats, bake a souffle, grow heirloom crops, produce radio, write a sonnet, talk with academics, understand astronomy and create and revel in beauty, all around her, all the time. They're drawn to me and terrified of me. Am I a witch? Am I mentally unstable? Am I even human? Maybe I'm a demon; they always abdicate their personal responsibility by blaming either g*d, satan, other fairy tails or every other human on Earth for their own laziness and stupidity, after all. POSERS! 

A whole Universe of wonder, beauty, joy and love is right in front of their noses and they will never see it. And they hate me because I can. Too bad, so sad. POSERS!







They're blowin' so much smoke, foolin' themselves, is it any wonder they can't see?




"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates

"The unlived life is not worth examining." Rogi 



 

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

the freezer caused the fire!

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NOTE: I wrote the following email to the landlady on May 26, 2011. I haven't spoken with the state's arson investigator since he got the lab results back, but in a previous telephone call, he suggested that the fire may have originated from a cigarette butt, placed in a trash barrel, near the wall where you see the most smoke damage. So, I sent the following email, which received no reply.

The state's arson investigator called me today, on his vacation, to let me know he's sure I'm not an arson suspect.

He's waiting for results of evidence testing,  but  believes the fire may have been caused by a lit cigarette in the barrel of trash I was collecting outside the bathroom window when I first moved in.

I know I wouldn't have thrown a cigarette butt there, as I'm to conscientious about fire and smoking and have a fire proof method of disposing of butts, on the opposite side of the porch.

The person who  caused the fire gave me a ride to and from Edgewood to go shopping on Sunday.

I don't know his name.  But, a member of the last group of volunteer firefighters, left with me until the investigator arrived, does know him. He is a heavy-set fire fighter who works with a clean up and construction business. He told me the man's name. He saw me hitch hiking on old 66 and saw the man pick me up.

Apparently, the cigarette and trash must have smoldered all night. I smelled something funny in the area of the weights by the front door, I thought, on Monday, as I was doing laundry.

Your mother was in the house later that day. After she left, I used the bathroom and the smell was stronger. It didn't smell like smoke; it smelled like chemicals. I thought, since Sue didn't mention it, it was either my imagination or some sort of cleaning products she was using.

I would have immediately contacted dispatch then, if I'd had any logical reason to suspect a fire, but I did not.

I lost a four hundred dollar washing machine, a $450 electric bicycle and about $300 worth of groceries.

I had some minor smoke damage, which I refused to have treated, because I wanted to stay with my property and animals to protect them.

I was the first responder, hosing the fire and screaming for help, which is how I inhaled smoke and steam.

I tried to save your cat.

If the trash, combustible liquids, weeds and sofa were not there, this would not have happened.

I did not destroy your house; I was trying to save it.

Nobody has asked about my health, welfare or needs. I now have no toilet, am coughing constantly and have no food. And the Sheriff's office has reported your property as dangerously substandard and unsafe, so I now have to move, on top of everything.

Take responsibility for your own lives and stop blaming me for your dysfunction.

I am actively seeking suitable housing and will vacate as soon as I am able.

it wasn't until the middle of the next month that I discovered this post on facebook and wrote:

They nearly killed all my animals...no food or water for over 3 days. They fenced in everything I owned. Daddy threatened me with a gun. They screamed at me. They shut off the water and electricity. They threatened and harassed me. They SLASHED MY GARDEN HOSES, so I couldn't water my animals.

It was their funky-arsed FREEZER that caused the fire, NOT ME! SHE is saying God did it. HE writes the freezer did it. IT IS THEIR RESPONSIBILITY and they are BLAMING ME AND GOD?????

bad words 

AND THEY'VE KNOW IT SINCE MAY 24!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I know you're reading

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I have no money; there's no point in trying to beat a dead horse. I had no idea there were so many grandiose, paranoid, abusive hoarders in the East Mountains, but it seems to be a way of life. Leave me alone. Go watch tv. 

Progress?

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I looked up membership lists for 2 goat societies today: pygmy and dairy. I emailed my flier and a blurb to anybody with an email address. and I put this ad on craigslist: http://albuquerque.craigslist.org/sha/2351536237.html there's a guy not far from here in Edgewood who responded. We're going to try to meet up on Saturday, after his finals.

I was up all night, researching. I was on the phone all day until about 4:45 (she should be home soon).

Spoke with the under sheriff, who says it's a civil matter and he won't just toss me off for trespassing or something. He says I've provided substantial evidence that we had a rental contract, even though I wasn't to pay rent until the 3rd of May. And he promises she can't just tow away my trailer, especially with me living in it. He was very respectful and sympathetic, considering he knows Cindi but not me. He understood what I told him about not asking her if we could "speak like adults," that that would just enrage her further.

Weasel has a giant tick on his back that's driving him nuts, so I have to go. More later.

Friday, April 29, 2011

homeless with dog

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sheriffs here; restraining order. must leave everything, get off property in a few minutes homeless

restraining order forced to leave everything now homeless, stranded
I'm at Moriarty Public Library. Trying to reach Robert Hunt, pastor of Bethel Church. Number not listed, but people trying to find out. Sheriffs very nice; drove me to 3 places. Now have a little pantry food. Have Weasel with me. Cats have food in trailer & can exit small door in back for water. Goats, chickens penned. Trailer hitch locked. one thing at a time.
sheriffs promise not to arrest me for hitch hiking or vagrancy.

Charging Cricket cell phone as I write. No money to put in it right now, but maybe pastor can help? Called ministry in Edgewood, recommended by client at food pantry, left message where I am.


 cats in trailer with access to small door to outside, with plenty of food. goats, chickens penned. At Moriarty Public library with suitcase of essentials, a little food and Weasel, my little dog.

No place to sleep tonight yet. Trying to contact Robert Hunt, a local minister, who offered temp. housing.

Please spread word among goat people. I have a paypal button on my domain http://rogiriverstone.com

I'm charging my Cricket phone, but have no money, so cannot load it to operate.
Officer Chris Garcia just came back, concerned for me. He's bringing my luggage carrier, as one wheel on my suitcase is broken and it must be dragged, rather than rolled. He's trying very hard to find out Robert Hunt's phone number. If he had $10 on him, he'd spot it to me, so I could load my Cricket phone. very nice.

No temp housing from pastor tonight. THere's a Ponderosa Motel in Moriarty, if someone wants to arrange a room for me for tonight.

Ponderosa Motel
1000 Route 66
Moriarty, NM 87035
(505) 832-4403

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Progress?

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I looked up membership lists for 2 goat societies today: pygmy and dairy. I emailed my flier and a blurb to anybody with an email address. and I put this ad on craigslist: http://albuquerque.craigslist.org/sha/2351536237.html there's a guy not far from here in Edgewood who responded. We're going to try to meet up on Saturday, after his finals.

I was up all night, researching. I was on the phone all day until about 4:45 (she should be home soon).

Spoke with the under sheriff, who says it's a civil matter and he won't just toss me off for trespassing or something. He says I've provided substantial evidence that we had a rental contract, even though I wasn't to pay rent until the 3rd of May. And he promises she can't just tow away my trailer, especially with me living in it. He was very respectful and sympathetic, considering he knows Cindi but not me. He understood what I told him about not asking her if we could "speak like adults," that that would just enrage her further.

Weasel has a giant tick on his back that's driving him nuts, so I have to go. More later.

Goat Lover Seeks Housing

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I just sent the following, flyer attached, to every goat lover with an email address online in New Mexico that I could find.


Hi, this is unusual, I know, but I'll ask. Do you have room on your property where I could just live in my house trailer? I'd need access to water, a bathroom, electricity and some way to hook up internet.

Otherwise, could I store my trailer there, and rent a room?

I have shelter for my animals.

Trailer is travel trailer, 30ftx maybe 7ft.

The main challenge is housing for my 3 small goats. The males are wethered, so no smells or aggression. I have 1 very small dog who hangs in the trailer. I also have 4 cats, but they prefer to be in the trailer or very close to it, outside. They are afraid of other people, so they won't bother you. All animals spayed/neutered except nanny goat.

If you include all utilities, plus free access to a bathroom (shared is fine), I can pay $350/month. If I need to pay my own internet, phone, etc., I'll ask to pay $250/month.

I have my own kitchen and can cook in here, too.

I'm very self sufficient. I don't play "space invaders" with housemates.

I'm quiet, stay to myself most of the time, work on the internet. I can provide references. My dependable income is limited to Social Security Disability Insurance, but rent always gets paid first. Other sources of income are freelance writing for periodicals, plus independent, community radio productions.

Goats: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=raXz-Ox7BDI http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WkOuqcBB05E

Chicks: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IdwoNfIghA8

Substandard house: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ivrDcwnsQLc

blog: http://livinginthehood.blogspot.com/

I have been actively seeking secure, affordable housing for 17 months. There is none in New Mexico http://alibi.com/news/34690/The-Cost-of-Living.html

I am responsible for my animals; they depend on me.

CraigsList ad

potential housing leads?

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draft email to Cindi: payments

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I have credit card receipts for the following purchases I made for you
Cigarettes $21
Gasoline: $25 (that is what you requested; tonight you said I "only" paid $21) I am awaiting my next statement to verify amount
Feed: $29, plus or minus a few cents

In total, I have paid you $75, plus or minus a few dollars and/or cents, in cash and purchases to compensate you for your gasoline.

In addition, I have performed 3 hours' labor, cleaning and preparing your house for a wedding reception, cleaning the bathroom to which I was assigned and washing your dishes (you left for 2 days, knowing I planned to wash dishes & do laundry, leaving both the dish washer an the sink full of dirty dishes. In addition, your son and his guests filled up the sink again), at a fee of $10/hr, which I volunteered, to thank you for your generosity and to pay my weight around the house until my monies arrive on the THIRD, not the second, of next month.

I replaced the gasoline in your truck the day I used it.

I also spent $15 on windshield wiper, ashtrays and presents for your truck.

in addition, I prepared 2 meals for your family at 2 hours' labor and $10 ingredients.

So, adding these additional items, I have compensated you an additional $75, plus or minus $5, as gifts to you.

I think, considering my short tenancy, I have been pulling my weight quite well.

In addition to all that, I spent half a day repairing your weak chicken coop roof.

I didn't complain about any of it, but you sure did.

it's below freezing in here

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Cindi told me to use an electrical outlet for my house trailer that is connected to her heaviest usage: furnace, washer, dryer, refrigerator, bathroom.

I told her I needed a dedicated outlet in  part of the house seldom used. she has 4 bedrooms full of junk with unused outlets, as well as a shed.

But she insisted I plug in to the highest usage breaker on the house. I lost power 3 times the night before easter, as she kept blow drying shrink wrap onto easter eggs. I also lost power, trying to warm coffee in the microwave the next morning, because she was both washing and drying clothes.

I plugged in my space heater tonight. i saw her bathroom light go on. Whatever she did broke the circuit again. I don't dare plug in the heater.

I have my electric blanket on. But it's really cold in here. 

3am

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3 am haven't slept afraid to sleep as Rachel calling 11:45 am; don't want to oversleep and miss call. think can plug MY phone into box outside, so can hear it. REALLY scared. not sure when waking up to begin posting on facebook, email that I'm still here. 

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

pitch to "This American Life"

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I don't think I'll survive this one. So, when I saw This American Life is looking for stories, I emailed them



Julie, I just move out of extremely substandard hoousing: no sewage, heat, running water, etc. I am now living in my travel trailer, behind a woman's home about 75 miles away. Tonight, after 1 week, she ordered me out and actually expects me to vacate the property by the 3rd of next month. I have no vehicle to tow the trailer and won't have any money until my $700/mo Social Security check comes in  on the 3rd. I also have 4 cats, a little dog, 23 baby chicks and 3 goats on her property. I believe she chose to rent to me in order to take away my animals, as I believe she is an animal hoarder.

Goats: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=raXz-Ox7BDI http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WkOuqcBB05E

Chicks: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IdwoNfIghA8

Substandard house: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ivrDcwnsQLc

blog: http://livinginthehood.blogspot.com/

I have a minidisc recorder & mic. I've produced documentaries in the past and have a PRX membership, as well as membership to AIR.

I would like to record a bit of my story, with lots of animal sounds, etc.

I have been actively seeking secure, affordable housing for 17 months. There is none in New Mexico http://alibi.com/news/34690/The-Cost-of-Living.html

I am responsible for my animals; they depend on me. I am also exhausted from being treated like a pariah and target for exploitation. I only found out tonight that she wants me out and is threatening to have my trailer towed to an impound lot, with everything I own in it, including several hundred dollars' groceries in the freezer.

I am making plans to end my life, if I cannot locate housing. I would give my entire check next month to a friend who helped me get the trailer, as well as its contents and the trailer itself.

I don't see any other options.


I maxed out my credit cards, which I was successfully paying off, and emptied my bank account in order to move into this place. With a trailer, animals and only $700/month income, my chances of finding housing are almost nil.

Would you be interested in this story?
 
Hi there This American Life friends and contributors:

It’s Ira Glass here.  We're doing this show next week - May 6th - that
we've been planning for months and are very excited about.  It's
unlike any show we've ever done.  The theme is simply:  "This Week."
Everything in the show will have happened in the previous seven days.
That'll include an international story or two, and things that are
happening in national news in DC and elsewhere.  But it'll also
include hyper-local: hopefully a bar fight, a first kiss.  In other
words: an approach to doing a “news” show in a narrative way,
reporting the week's news with great characters and stories and
hopefully a lot of feeling.  Fingers crossed on that anyway.  Not one
minute of tape has been recorded as I write this.

Here's where you fit in.

Do you know of anything especially interesting happening (to you or
anyone else) between Saturday April 30 and Friday May 6th?  Something
that might qualify as having a “big” week?  Some ideas we’ve thrown
around here: a Youth League soccer or school sports rivalry that'll
come to a big decisive game?  Someone doing something for the first
time?  Someone who might go into remission or come out of a coma or
get married or open a business or shut down their business?  Anyone
who'll get their tax check back from the government and get to spend
it?  A talent show or recital or school play?  Someone getting their
first drunk tattoo or braces put on or braces taken off?  Someone
trying as hard as they can in the last weeks of the semester not to
flunk out?

Or maybe there's an interesting local news story where you are that
might be approaching a turning point next week?

Obviously, the best stories - as always - would be ones where
something important is at stake for someone.  What we already have: a
beauty pageant, Wisconsin electoral news, a college student who's
graduating and moving back in with her parents.  That leaves a lot of
room for you.

Because we'll be turning these stories around so fast, if you're not
an experiened radio producer or reporter we most likely will pay you
for the idea and then either set up a quick phone interview with the
subject or figure out a way to get a producer to gather some tape.

And if nothing comes to mind as you read this right now, please keep
us in mind next week should you happen to fall in love for the first
time, decide suddenly to emigrate to Norway, find a thousand dollar
bill on the sidewalk or get called up from the minor leagues to the
majors.

Thanks!  I know the contributions we get from all of you will be an
important part of this show.

Ira Glass

Here's how "dangerous" I am to Cindi

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Cindi complains of chronic pain and has told me she has multiple prescriptions for such drugs as oxycodon, etc. When she returned the other night, she told me tonight, she was "high on morphine and don't remember driving home." She is also completely co-depnendent on her son, whose behavior this week indicates to me that he is an alcoholic and addicted to marijuana. And I mean addicted. Cindi herself told me he never goes without it.

She told me tonight she considers the following private message I sent to her via facebook to be "demanding." I found out what's wrong with the ethernet cable. It has broken outer insulation and appears to have been smashed or cut. She claims it was "working fine" before I got ahold of it. This is what I mean by paranoid. She also accused me of endangering her animals by not locking them up before we went, together, to the store the other day. I don't remember whether or not I locked them up, but am pretty certain I did, as I'm very afraid of the pack of coyotes behind her house. Even if I did NOT lock them up, she went with me and didn't lock them up, either.

Here's the message I sent that is so "demanding." This is a major reason why she feels we cannot live together and why she is afraid of me:

Cindi,

I have Pioneer Telephone long distance. They're asking me if I've been "slammed," as i have no phone service now. I need long distance for my job; I have to record telephone interviews. I'd also like to be able to call Rachel and another friend occasionally. Pioneer costs 2 1/2 cent per minute, so I can easily pay the bill.

The internet is not working properly. I need to upload audio files to a professionals' website and I need dependable speed to do that. I can't watch an hr. long television episode at present without frequent interruptions of up to 10 minutes per. So, I need to buy a new ethernet cable and investigate what else I need to maximize internet access to my pc.

But I can't have anything mailed her unless I have access to the mail box and key. Also, PayPal says
[deleted]
MORIARTY, NM 87035-5200
is not a valid address. I've got an email into them, but they don't respond often or reliably.

I can't do my job without access to reliable telephone, internet and postal mail and I really need your help to get things straightened out so I can get on with my life. You don't need the extra burden of having someone have to constantly depend on you for the simplest things and I don't need to feel stranded and helpless. So, let's get these minor details out of the way so I can start working again and earn my own income, please.

Thanks for your cooperation,

Rogi

It's over. I'm done

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You know how people say that what other people think about you shouldn't matter? Well, it does. Cindi is accusing me of stuff that doesn't even make sense.

Her son attacked me the other day over nothing, screaming and threatening me, while Cindi was out of town. He then called her and accused me of I don't know what.

She told me today I have to move out. I know nobody here, can't ask for help or rides or anything. I am stranded with very bad internet connection, no access to my mail -- and I just requested my new CREDIT CARDS be mailed here! -- and no long distance. The only phone that works more than 10 minutes without batteries dying is in her bedroom.

I will try to find housing, but I have no hope. Cindi sent me the following facebook messages, which I did not see until she told me about them just now. She SAYS I can have a bit more time, but won't say how much. She has connections with law enforcement and can really make a mess for me.

i just got off the phone with all the kids and they are very angry. I cannot live with this much angy around me..i hurt all the time and never treat people the way you have.. You cannot turn my peaceful life upside down like this..you must find somewhere else to live..i expect you to be gone by the time you get your check on the second. Im sorry this couldnt work. Now we r both in a mess.

She says, when I did not respond to the 1st msg, she sent the following
Rogi, Please know as much as I hate this happening. I am very serious. You need to find some where else to be. I will call a tow truck and have the trailor pulled out, and then you will have another expence to get it out of the tow yard. Please have your things gone by May 4th,2011 to avoid any further action..

She does not believe that I did not receive the messages. She also thinks my not speaking to her when she returned the other night is evidence of my guilt of lying to her about it. She returned announcing she had food poisoning and had spent the night in the emergency room, went into her bedroom and shut the door. Of course, I didn't speak to her; she was sick. I told her this afternoon that I'd noticed her door open this morning; had I known she'd sent the messages, of course, I would have said something.

She called Rachel, but I don't know anything about that.

I am giving Rachel next month's social security check, the house trailer and all its contents, if I cannot, which I doubt I can, secure housing. Cindi will get the animals, which is probably why she agreed to let me live here free until I could pay rent. She seems to be an animal hoarder and wanted mine

Please make appointments to telephone me on Cindi's land line during the day, except Friday, Saturday and Sunday, when Cindi is off work. She knows you will be calling. Her number is [deleted]. I would like  to say my good byes in person.

I sincerely appreciate your support. But I cannot keep living like a hunted animal and a pariah.

Sincerely,

Rogi 

Monday, April 11, 2011

videos on homelessness

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Uploaded by on Oct 28, 2009
http://www.ted.com Becky Blanton planned to live in her van for a year and see the country, but when depression set in and her freelance job ended, her camping trip turned into homelessness. In this intimate talk, she describes her experience of becoming one of America's working homeless.

TEDTalks is a daily video podcast of the best talks and performances from the TED Conference, where the world's leading thinkers and doers give the talk of their lives in 18 minutes. Featured speakers have included Al Gore on climate change, Philippe Starck on design, Jill Bolte Taylor on observing her own stroke, Nicholas Negroponte on One Laptop per Child, Jane Goodall on chimpanzees, Bill Gates on malaria and mosquitoes, Pattie Maes on the "Sixth Sense" wearable tech, and "Lost" producer JJ Abrams on the allure of mystery. TED stands for Technology, Entertainment, Design, and TEDTalks cover these topics as well as science, business, development and the arts. Closed captions and translated subtitles in a variety of languages are now available on TED.com, at http://www.ted.com/translate. Watch a highlight reel of the Top 10 TEDTalks at http://www.ted.com/index.php/talks/top10




Uploaded by monkeyboxcomedy on May 11, 2008

Ty and the gang remake a cardboard box into... well, take a look and see the heartwarming story!

Visit us at http://www.TheMonkeyBox.com




Uploaded by rubydog189 on Mar 11, 2008

Those bloodsuckers...
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Uploaded by on Aug 3, 2010
Would you intervene if you saw someone abusing a homeless person?

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Hunting the Homeless http://youtu.be/VWNQ5zbKw-Q

Sunday, April 10, 2011

The slum I'm stuck in now.

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This is the place I rented on the frontier prairies of New Mexico. Landlord hasn't collected rent or contacted me in 6 months.

I appear in court April 15, 2011 because he's evicting me for non-payment of rent. I have no address for him, even though that's required by law, so I can't even mail it. He's supposed to pick it up.

He disappears for months at a time. At least one of these months-long gaps, he was in jail. Last gap, he wanted $300 for 6 months he was gone. Now, he's suing me for $800 for five months?

This is how I live. No: sewage, running water, heat, air conditioning, water heater, toilet or bath.  I've had 6 showers, at neighbors' places, in 17 months. I poop in a paint bucket and bury it in the yard.

I've been actively seeking housing, all over the state, for 17 months. I have no car, which makes house hunting, let alone getting groceries, extremely complicated.

I think he needs $ for the property taxes and is desperate.

Won't return my messages to girlfriend's phone, of course. They used to hang up on me, pretend we had a bad connection, or speak Spanish to try to convince me, who used "redial," that I'd called the wrong number, when I'd call to ask about repairs, etc.


Friday, April 08, 2011

Micah Village is a scam, not a place to live

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Sam,

You're spooked because I did a background check on you after I visited your place. In fact, I've been waiting for Milly Sigmund to return from vacation, before I was going to contact you. She works Adult Protective Services in Socorro County, and if something was wrong with your place, she would know.

I did contact APS in Los Lunas. Your place has no red flags from APS. I also called the Better Business Bureau of New Mexico, and they don't have any reports against you, either.

I contacted a member of the board who has never actually seen the place.

And I called Socorro County Sheriff's Department, to try to ascertain whether or not I would be safe there.

It was not an "unreasonable demand" for me to politely ask for a 30 day notice; that's a standard rental agreement and common courtesy, especially given that I have no vehicle and moving off your place could not have been instantaneous, based on some whim of yours.

I found a blog post by a former resident that really concerned me. I'm not sure how reliable that resident is. But, if only 25% of what that person said was accurate, I had good reason to do a background check.

I am disabled and very low income. I cannot afford predators in my life.

After our afternoon together, you and your companion indicated that everything was just fine, no problems, and I could move in.

Suddenly, it's a board decision; I'm not appropriate to live in your community and everybody voted me out, with NO conversation with me, NO request for references or proof of income or criminal record, all of which would have proven, hands down, that I'm an excellent candidate to live in a cooperative community, truly dedicated to health and healing.

YOU volunteered that you wouldn't take my "whole check for the month," when we spoke. I thought that was a rather peculiar thing for you to have volunteered, at the time. Based on my research, even without conversation with Socorro APS, I have reason to believe that you attempted, or accomplished, just that, with at least 2 former residents.

And it's very interesting to me that I was told, categorically, the decision to not let me pay rent there was final, but, after I begged and told you I'd "do anything" to live there, suddenly, I should call you back in a couple of hours for another decision.

I think you want victims you can control. I won't let my possessions, career, animals and self be held in ransom to someone I believe cannot be trusted.

Your accusations and weird repetition of the phrase, "kid in a candy store" to describe my terror at potential eviction do not scan, under the circumstances. For a person who presumably has a background in counseling, particularly with people with behavioral health issues, this seems inappropriate. I have brain injuries and post traumatic stress, and I told you that the day we met. One of the worst triggers for my PTS is fear of homelessness. You could have been more accepting of the critical nature of my call and of my abject terror at my circumstances.

And I know you lied to me about Mary. You let me think you two were still involved in some intimate and working relationship. She lives in Albuquerque, works there and is going back to school. And she has a boyfriend.

You're a liar.

I'm not.

Too bad people can't just earn a living, instead of making a killing. I'm done with parasites.

I'll take my chances on homelessness. I'm nobody's bitch.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

If you don't drug your kid, you're going to jail

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Charges filed over girl's medications

 Godboldo told relatives medications ordered by a doctor worsened symptoms, including behavioral problems.

"Maryanne's decision to wean her from that was making a difference, making her better, helping her to be a happy kid again," Mubuarak Hakim, the girl's father, said.
A preliminary hearing has been set for April 8.





Detroit mother who resisted police for 12 hours is freed on personal bond

Authorities say Godboldo was to lose custody because she was not properly treating her daughter’s mental illness. When she refused to answer the door for protective services, police were called, shots were fired and the stand-off ensued.
In court Godboldo’s attorney said the mother was not administering the drug because she believes in holistic approach to her daughter’s condition.
The attorney described the illness to the judge as “possible autism.” She said the daughter had been prescribed medication called Risperdal. The drug is used to treat a number of conditions, including schizophrenia, mania and depression.
The 13-year-old is being treated at a local mental facility. Relatives are hoping to ultimately get custody of her.

Homeless with goats

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Willy and Nilly were one week old when I bought them at a feed store. They were pygmy dwarf goats: not as chunky and stubby as pygmies, but smaller than standards. I was living with my girlfriend in a house on a one-acre, fenced lot. We had chickens and ducks, already. Extending the chicken house for a goat shed wasn't difficult, so why not? I wanted my own milk, yogurt and cheese. I'm very low income and depend on food stamps. The more self-sustaining I am -- with gardening, eggs and dairy -- the better off I am.

Five years later, the girlfriend is gone, but I have my goats. After we split up, I had a terrible time, finding adequate and affordable housing. Every place I've lived has been substandard, with landlords who, basically, use my goats as hostages to force me to pay rent for raw sewage, leaking pipes, infestations of vermin and actual verbal abuse. A landlord last year shot and killed all my ducks, chickens and geese. I barely got out, lost almost everything, but managed to escape with most of my animals alive, although one dog had a bullet in her shoulder. I hitch hiked 160 miles with Willy, Nilly, 2 doves and 4 cats in crates to where I'm living now.
Willy, Nilly and my 2 dogs boarded, temporarily, with some unscrupulous animal hoarders, posing as an animal sanctuary. When they realized they couldn't hold my animals hostage for ransom, they called the state's Animal Cruelty Hotline, to report me for "animal abuse" and called Adult Protective Services (APS), saying I was too mentally unstable to care for myself and my animals. Animal Control ended up investigating them and "red flagging" them as animal hoarders, no longer allowed to adopt from the shelter. APS told me the people who'd taken my animals have tried to extort money from others in the past, even trying to get one woman to sign over the deed to her house! They lurk in CraigsList. When they see someone with a pet who is in distress, they move in, promise to help, then blackmail the person. They prey on the elderly, disabled and behaviorally challenged. I'd put an ad in CraigsList, looking for help in my crisis. They had answered.

I got one dog back. The hoarders had the County Livestock Commissioner pick up Willy and Nilly; they wouldn't give me their address and let me pick them up, myself. The Commissioner had no place to keep them. So I got a call at 3:30pm, demanding I show proof of ownership at the Cattleman's Auction, all the way across the county, by 5pm, or Willy and Nilly would be auctioned for slaughter the following morning. I called the place in Albuquerque where I'd bought them; she faxed a bill of sale to the auction. I downloaded all my photos and videos of Willy and Nilly onto a thumb drive, grabbed two leashes and, in the dead of winter, hitch hiked across the county to get my goats. And yes, I hitch hiked home with two goats.

Willy was covered with knots and bruises. Nilly had blood on her flanks and was bleeding from her vent. They had bred her without my consent or knowledge. A pygmy nanny cannot easily pass a kid from a father who is too large. The pregnancy could have killed her.

When she came due, she yelled. I had a tiny bedroom all ready: sheet plastic and absorbent blankets on the floor, sterilizing, suturing, antiseptic, bandaging and other equipment ready. I had gloves and lubricant and I even had a soldering iron hot and ready, in case she tore and I needed to cauterize it. She lay on her side, pressing against my filing cabinets, pushing her back into my thighs. I massaged her and lubricated her. When it was time to really push, she screamed and screamed. Poor Willy was outside the window, frantic, trying to climb in. The first kid came out perfect. I set it by her tummy. The second kid came out a lot more easily. They were large. She stretched until she was transparent. And, if the babies had been breach, I could have done nothing; she was too small for my hand.
The babies are very healthy and they will be larger than Nilly. Nilly died just at the time they were almost totally weaned. I worked on her for seven hours. I called out to neighbors passing by for help, but nobody would stop. I didn't get to look up the problem on the internet until the next day: neurotoxic poisoning. I think, if she'd eaten something poison, she would have told the kids to eat it, too. And, of course, you can't feed one goat without Willy getting in on it, too. Since the other goats are fine, I suspect a venomous creature bit her.

So, now I have Chili, Willy and Nilly II. I wethered (neutered) Chili myself. I don't want inbreeding; that's why I wethered Willy, too. It's not difficult and not painful, after a few minutes, if you use a good banding tool and have some nerve, antiseptic and a tetanus injection ready. Willy complained more about the tetanus shot than the banding!

We live, quite literally, in frontier New Mexico. The house I rented is unfit: no sewage, heat or running water. The ex-girlfriend took out a small loan and I bought a thirty foot travel trailer and am paying her back. I live in the trailer, in the driveway. I am a hundred mile hitch hike, round trip, from Albuquerque: the closest place for decently-priced provisions. I am completely alone out here. I am afraid of my neighbors; they've been hostile, abusive and cruel. I am searching classified ads and internet boards, all over the state of New Mexico, trying to find adequate housing that I can afford.
People say I should give up my animals and move into a HUD project. Well, first: have you ever LIVED in HUD housing? Just writing about the idea is making me a little sick. Next, my animals are my friends. They protect me; they show me affection; they amuse me. Now, in the modern age, I know we're all supposed to put our own needs ahead of anything or anybody else. But not me -- not with my animals, anyway. They depend on me. They trust me to feed, house, doctor, care for and love them. If I betrayed their trust, I couldn't live with myself.

I was happy in that little house in Albuquerque. We used to put the goats on their leashes and walk around Old Towne. Tourists took their pictures in the sculpture garden and on the plaza. We'd put them in our box truck, drive downtown for the free movies on Civic Plaza during the summer. The goats ate popcorn while we watched movies.

I live without a lot to keep my animals safe. It's hard work, just to get groceries, do a load of laundry, get to a doctor. But nobody will rent to me, either because my little disability check is too small for the unaffordable rents, or because they don't understand my goats. They're quiet. They don't dig or bark. They stay close to home (ie me) and they're not destructive, if you know what you're doing and how to fence -- and amuse -- a goat. Bored goats, just like people, get into a lot more trouble than active, busy goats.

The  Weekly Alibi ran an article a few months back. There is no affordable housing, anywhere, in New Mexico. I'm sad and scared and check the ads every day, trying to find a place for us to live.

They only need a space as big as a suburban back yard, but Albuquerque zoning won't let me keep them on less than four THOUSAND square feet, per goat. These goat are the size of German Shepherds, full grown! Well, Willy is pretty rotund, so let's say a pot bellied pig.

I'm not a freak or crazy for wanting my goats for milk, cheese, yogurt, amusement, protection and affection. Apparently, though, I'm way ahead of Albuquerque's time. Let low income people feed ourselves!