Ma,
I trusted you.
I told you I needed to prepare myself emotionally.
I wasn't ready for that!
Three, paid staff, on whose opinion my career depends, against one disadvantaged volunteer.
And then, to have you sit there and talk about how emotional I am?
And you KNEW!
It was completely disrespectful of me as a person, as a volunteer.
I won't forget this. I can't trust you again.
It was abusive.
You could have honored my request to wait until I had my agenda in order. It wouldn't have hurt anybody.
By ignoring my needs, you hurt me. And it was gratuitious; it wasn't necessary. And it fostered the atmosphere of upset, distrust and suspicion I've been working so hard to dispell.
I have a memory disorder. I can't think under stress. I was deliberately placed at a disadvantage today. And then told how inadequate I was.
I needed time to prepare, and you didn't honor that.
Congratulations. I hope you got whatever it was you needed, because it came profoundly at my expense.
I won't be back until my scooter runs. And I hope to be gone before regular office hours.
You really blew it with me today, Ma.
I won't always be poor, vulnerable, powerless and dependent.
But I'll always remember how you dishonored me when I was.
Rogi
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